Hi friend,
I type this on Friday, 8 days after my surgery when I’m cleared to work a bit.
But I’m not entirely comfortable with over an hour of laptop time yet. So since the newsletter takes 40min, here I am.
What a week it’s been!
The Surgery
My LASIK was a quick surgery.
35 seconds of laser time and under 2 minutes of ‘surgery time’ per eye.
But yours truly was super anxious! Especially because you also lose vision for a few seconds which set me into panic mode.
I mean, won’t you panic if you go blind for 5 seconds?
When one eye got over and we took 2 minutes before we hopped onto the other one, I realised how tensed my entire body was.
The Aftermath
The surgery was for my eyes, but my gut suffered. LOL.
I got nausea. The journey 50m back home wasn’t easy because I was so uncomfortable.
Once we got home, I fell sick.
I got diarrhoea + vomiting. The doctor told my mum it was because I was super anxious during the surgery.
FYI, this is such a straightforward example of how anxiety can screw you physically.
The Beloved Blood Vessels
It’s not as dramatic as it sounds, I promise.
I just vomited with way too much pressure. I actually did feel pressure in my temples (if thats related in any case). The next day during my review the doctor saw blood clots.
I didn’t see it, because I couldn’t even open my eyes without the stinging sensation. I only started ‘seeing’ on the evening of Day 2.
Luckily, nothing was around the surgical area.
Right now, 80% of clots have dissolved. And it didn’t hurt or anything.
The World is Clear!
For the first time in 20 years, I can wake up and see. But on most days I still find my specs… Old habits die hard, you know.
Everything is so, so clear.
There isn’t a pair of heavy specs resting on my nose. I’m not blinking too much to lubricate my lenses.
It feels so good, really.
I just find the sun too bright but I’m excited to start heading out soon.
What I Didn’t Enjoy
I missed working.
Today that I can work (a little), I don’t want to work.
I was REALLY distracted.
I got so bored. There’s only so much you can read and watch.
Waking up but not working out/ working made my mornings bleh.
In a way, I feel I’ve failed the mindfulness practice I’ve been cultivating for 3 years. I constantly desired stimulation because it’d feel like so much time has passed by but it’d only be 9:30 am.
Maybe I’m overthinking this.
(Overthinking is my second side hustle ;) )
Last
I understand that this newsletter was more about me, in fact, all about me.
I will get back to writing across platforms slowly.
Also, if you don’t already know I also have a weekly newsletter called ‘Side Hustle Saturdays’. It’s free and goes to all those who’ve got a copy of my Side Hustler’s Checklist.
The 4th issue will be out on Saturday 7 pm IST :)
PS - My course, Summit 21, has 6 spots left and starts in 45 days. So exciting!
See you next week.
I appreciate you devoting a fraction of your time to me.
Love,
N
I was super worried when you said that the blood vessels in your eyes had burst. I’m so glad to find out that it wasn’t as bad as I had feared.
The surgery sounds like my brother in law's cataract surgery. He said it was minutes and he could see right away just described a scratchy feeling. Peace for you and healing