Hi friend,
I’m back from Japan and typing this on a Sunday morning.
I shouldn’t do this because I’m off work and after such a tedious trip, I need a day or so to get myself together.
But my most vulnerable video went live yesterday.
It wasn’t planned. I was trying to shoot in bulk before my holiday and thought
“Let’s shoot one video without knowing what to tak about. Talk about what hits you in the heart. Talk about whats important. Say something that can leverage your hardship to help somebody else out there.”
And so I did. I spoke about my battle with self-esteem.
I wrote something today morning on LinkedIn.
I don’t mean to sound repetitive to some of you who have already read it, but it may give context as to why am I really typing this newsletter real-time.
Advanced apologies for any typos or grammar issues lol as I usually edit after 1-2 days of writing.
Low self-esteem has been my longest battle. A few minutes before I started typing this post, I saw two educated men in leading positions at work demeaning me in the comments in my previous post.
It's only 9:40 am, and it's affected me.
I haven't deleted them, nor do I plan to respond to them.
But what I'm trying to tell you is - what I do for a living and because it's online and amplifies this anxiety.
There have been certain factors around this battle since childhood:
• being the tallest in my class since I was a kid
• having a rather deep voice which isn't 'girly'
• I still deal with adult acne, and always have
• being average in studies + no sports
I'm still not where I want to be, but I'm MUCH better than how I was.
And as for being affected by things online, it fades away once I get away from the computer, anyway.
My latest YouTube video is probably the most vulnerable video I've shot yet. It wasn't easy, but I shot it with the aim to help somebody out there who feels how I do and how I did.
I hope you watch it and enjoy it with your morning coffee or chai.
Recent Stories
Here’s what got published while I was away:
8 Things People Do Even Though Science Says It’s Terrible for Health
7 Crucial Lessons I’ve Learned in 2 Years of Making Money Online
I worked extra before the holiday so my stories continue to get out while I’m away. Talk about my obsession with consistency :)
I’ll see you next week.
More upbeat, more energised.
Love,
N
Good morning, Niharikaa! Thank you for the brave and beautiful video. Know that you are beautiful, too. You have a beautiful heart. You want to benefit others with your insights and abilities. You inspire every day. Thank you.