Hi friend,
I type this in my blanket because why not :) A few hours before I get ready for a New Year’s Eve party that I’m attending with my husband.
To be honest, I didn’t draft a newsletter for today.
But here’s something I penned this morning. And it doesn’t have my 2024 resolutions as I’m yet to think about that, haha.
Wherever you are - I wish you a great year ahead.
Lots of love,
N
PS: My cohort-based course, Summit 21, starts in 8 days from now! Last few seats left, join here.
My 2023 Wrap Up
2023 was when everything was so shiny on the outside. But on the inside, it was brutal.
I'm grateful for the good things. Stuff which I wouldn't ever imagine if you told me about it 2 years ago:
🌍 Travelled to 10 cities across 5 countries and 4 cities in my home country.
🏋🏽♀️ After 9 years of working out, I'm the fittest I've ever been. With 18.8% body-fat percentage and 45% of my weight being muscle, for the first time, I feel so good.
(Context: I've always been very heavy growing up and that has led to body dysmorphia)
🤑 40% more income than last year working much less (an average of 2.5h/day)
📈 Got over 80k followers on this platform and sometimes get recognised when outside. It happened just yesterday. A funny one was when I was crying my eyes out at Bangalore airport and had someone come to me with my LinkedIn profile open asking me if I was the same person 🤣
💰 My first year of brand sponsorships + my products and courses did well too.
🎤 I got invited to talk at colleges and workplaces I'd never get into with my marks lol.
😍 Have been working with a nutritionist since June after spending a lot on meds for my acne. It got to a point I didn't want to look at myself in the mirror. We've been working on my gut every day since then.
As a result, I also lost my belly fat and now feel fit and energetic overall. Truly a life-changing experience for me!
🎀 At this time, I have an incredibly strong support system of friends after meeting people through my husband + reconnecting with old friends.
👩👧 A LOT of family time
But, here's what you don't see when you see my lovely posts.
Lost a grandparent and grieved over the two I've lost for a long, long time. I realised I should've grieved earlier instead of 'being strong' because it was all inside me.
I've never been this stressed. More growth brings in more hunger which is good but can sometimes leads to discontentment if not channelled well.
I get really anxious about work.
I sometimes catch myself living in the past and screwing my mental peace (and I've been meditating for 5.5 years LOL)
I had a tiff with a closed one and I'm hurt and pretending to be okay since.
Doctors have been telling me for over 5 years to wear a mouth guard because I clench my jaw at night. Growing up, I was lucky to have a straight set of teeth. A few months ago, I noticed my lower jaw has crooked teeth. And they've also gone lower into my jaw(an irreversible process). I just feel so weird about it.
I've cried quite a bit.
In short, everything on the outside is better than it ever has.
But the space between my ears has seen better days :) I'm glad I noticed it because being aware helped me work towards it.
Maybe many of you reading this are also lost in a space you've created and I hope this helps you become more aware of it.
And get out of it, because it's self-induced pain.
Have a great 2024 :)
Good morning,
Gee,first time I have read your work.i don't read my emails nearly enough.i will now.you inspired me.im 63 depressed and not sure about my future.my husbend hates me.looking back I'm pretty sure always did.im not physically abused but all others.i could go on & on.
I saw thru you somehow change is possible .somehow
Thank you